Twitchy

So Monday got off to a great start with a stabbing pain in my side, right under my ribs. I could not stand up straight for the pain so I called the doctor & got in an emergency slot…only to be told my stomach is “twitchy” anyway and if the pain doesn't subside in two weeks to come back & get an ultrasound. Twitchy??? For pity's sake. (and yes, it still hurts but not as intensely.

Last night was our first bible study of the new year and I thought it went well. I came home and started doing some things around the house and encountered a huge spider in the basement. If you know me, you know arachnids are not my friends so I was all twitchy about that all night (and am afraid to go back down even now.). Then about half an hour after going to bed, I woke up in a completely agitated state. I think this was a combination of my lovely neighbor doing wash at midnight (again…though sometimes it is at 4, so I guess I was lucky) and drying on the cycle that buzzes every five minutes until apparently the end of time plus Norman desperately trying to kill Ramona and Nellie. Plus probably my thoughts on the arachnid…so it was not a good night.

Here's hoping tonight is better-i am exhausted.

Full Moon Rising

It was a good weekend.  I got a lot done yesterday, including reorganizing all my scrapbooking supplies (yes, I know you are all so envious of my ever exciting life!)  I watched We are Marshall while doing it and cried myself silly.  Today I got up early to work on my Sunday school lesson.  I had it all finished Thursday but decided overnight to rework it, which made me late for church and gave me no opportunity to talk to anyone before or after.  I got to take a 6 year old friend home, so we went to Pizza Hut and ate some yummy breadsticks and stuffed crush pizza (yuck, by the way…I couldn’t stomach the crust.)  Then I came home and watched Dale (finally…though I missed the first half hour) and cried some more.  Then I napped, only to be woken by a very sick cat and some carpets to be cleaned.  I called my mom re the sick cat, only to learn that my dad fell off a ladder today and hit his head on a cement paver.  He had no memory of the accident or anything else that morning for about an hour – yet they didn’t go to the hospital which is making me absolutely insane.  Apparently, he seems ok but his back and chest hurt.  I am praying there is nothing else wrong with him.  I would have wanted to get him checked out just in case….
 
Back to work tomorrow.  I am hoping to get in a new routine and back on track with my nutrition & exercise plan.  I’ve done ok the last few days (minus the pizza!)  We shall see.

Interestingly enough

There seems to be something motivating in having a treadmill in the bedroom, right in my line of sight when I am trying to veg out. What I would like would be the ability to get up & is it first thing in the morning. Right now, though, my goal is to get to work on time…and I'll take it from there.

On another note, I am strangely fascinated by the Iowa caucaus. I haven't a clue who I will vote for but I am interested most in the character of those running. Some did not have my respect for the word go; some have lost it in recent days. I understand attack ads are part of it but it is a part I can't abide.

Resolve

I don’t really like to make resolutions so much as goals for the new year. I’ve been pondering them, trying to make them most realistic and workable…so here they are:

*Read through the Bible this year
*Exercise at least three times a week
*Maintain a more healthy eating plan (based on what the nutritionist is working on with me)
*Manage my finances better

There are other, less lofty things…but for now, these are in the forefront. Wish me luck!

Happy New Year!

2008 is finally upon us. I had a great time last night at the church’s new year’s eve/10th anniversary party. It was actually much more fun than I thought it would be. I was home by 1:15 or so and got to bed by 2…then got up this morning to prepare for my annual Open House. I had about 40 people in and out and had a really nice time. It was great to see everyone and hang out.

I was a little depressed after everyone left though – partly because the holidays are over (and I have to clean up!) but mainly because my dear friends Trish & Jack will be moving this year. We talked about it some today because they’ll be looking at houses this coming weekend and hope to move by June. I knew this was coming but for some reason it hit me hard tonight after they headed home.

A New Year is Upon Us

How is it that the year flies by so quickly? Before I know it, summer will be here and with it, workcamp!

I’ve been thinking a lot about resolutions…maybe goals being a better word. My friend Nan & I used to share ours to help each other be accountable; maybe I will have to suggest that again. Posting them here too will make me accountable but I need to get my thoughts clearer before putting them down in print.

So right now, I am watching Steel Magnolias, copying my cds to the computer (so I can finally get my iPod back in action), purging my closet, dresser & sweater chest and making plans for two upcoming parties. Meanwhile, the upstairs neighbor apparently has invited a herd of wild elephants over. My apartment is literally shaking. The cats are scared out of their wits and I am about to lose my mind. One of these times, someone is going to come crashing right through my ceiling…

A Belated Merry Christmas to All

Christmas eve was a busy day – back & forth to church to setup for service, running a few much needed errands and traffic, traffic, traffic, all compounded by my illness and exhaustion.  Then yesterday I made some visits and saw my parents but faded out around dinner time and ended up going home to bed without making the annual trek to my uncle & aunt’s house.  I was disappointed about that because I always look forward to that but I literally could not do it.  Driving home was a challenge for my tired eyes and exhausted mind.  I got home and got right in bed and watched VH1’s top 100 songs of the 90s…but only made it to like 30 or so before I could not keep my eyes open any longer. 
 
The whole thing was a total flashback.  And my favorite of the whole night was seeing Hootie & the Blowfish – no, not because I am some big Hootie fan (they are ok but I don’t think I own any of their CDs) but because Hootie’s rise to stardom coincided with my conscious liberation from one controlling ex.  I spent a lot of time being agreeable with him – and that is not to say that we didn’t like the same things because for the most part, we often did – but there were some things where my opinion was either wrong or just basically crazy in his opinion, and so I learned that it was best to be quiet about certain things.  So after one particularly upsetting fight/breakup/whatever (they blend together in my head now) I remember crying to my friend and saying, “Now I can admit it – I like Hootie and the Blowfish!  So there!!”  So seeing Hootie last night made me laugh and remember that feeling of liberation, of not caring if he knew or if he cared or whatever his comment on the subject might be…simply not caring.  Whoo hoo!  I know that I continued to date said boy off and on again for an interminable length of time but I always went back to the feeling of power I had in that moment and never let myself feel like my opinion was not to be shared.
 
 
I am sick.
 
This stinks.
 
I felt yucky yesterday but went to the annual Christmas party at Keri & Tom’s.  It was nice to see everyone and catch up (especially with Debbles!) but by the end of the night, I was done for. 
 
I’ve spent most of this morning in bed but had to get up to do some Christmas-related stuff and I have a meeting with some new friends at 2 (more about that later) and then dinner with Sarah & Joe tonight.  I have yet to wrap their gifts, so I have to take care of that as well.  Hopefully tonight will be an earlier one and I can get some rest!  Or I will have a miraculous healing between now & then and I won’t need to come home early!  That would be ideal.